"Home sickness"

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Ens. Jas McCellan

Log Entry

Date: Feb 27, 2155

 

 

I arrived back at home at 1:29 am, my family was quite asleep, save for my sister. The lights in her room were on so I went to her room to see what she was doing up. As I walked up the stairs I felt terribly lonely and homesick despite the fact that I am actually at home and my sister was awake. I guess being in that hospital with Grey and his sister really imprinted on my brain, I hope his sister lives, I wished I could have just stayed there instead I have to leave for Challenger in a couple of hours.

 

I walked past my parents' bedroom, the door was closed and the lights off. It appeared as if the room was actually dead, but I knew that they were sleeping peacefully. I walked paste the kitchen, it reminded me of the mess hall on challenger; where I first met this Jon Marks that I will never know, for he perished in that sickbay. I walked into my sister room.

 

I really felt home sick, not for my own home but for Challenger. I picked my little sister's sleeping figure and carried her to bed. I really felt lonely yet not for anyone in my family, I missed Willow and the others. Even when some annoying crewman complains of headaches I still missed them. In my own home I find how boring everything must been for the past months. Not that I was not grateful that my family was safe, for I was. On challenger I’ve seen many versions of death but here I see none, for which I was glad. I laid Jess in to her bed; her eyes fluttered but did not awake.

 

I don't know if i made the right choice in my life, to be on a ship were any thing can and will happen, and life on that ship hangs upon a thread. While here at home, everything was perfectly safe and repetitive. Did I make the right choice? Was I right to chance my own life to save a few others'? I think not, I think I made the perfect choice.

 

I was glad my little sister will not have to be burdened by choices for a few more years, by then I would have enough experience to guide her to, hopefully, a correct path. She was lucky, innocent, and completely clueless as to what happens in outer space now a days. I tiptoed out of her room and closed the light.