"I abhor you. I adore you."

[Garnoopy 0]

Lieutenant Commander Garnoopy

Chief Engineering Officer

USS Manticore, NCC-5852

Personal Log Stardate 50408.28

“I abhor you. I adore you.”

 

We heard you coming and you came. We saw you coming and you came. We knew you were coming and you did. We saw your ship and it was there. We heard it connect with us and it was connected. We knew what was coming and it came.

 

So we ran out our door yelling “Fight, fight, fight!” No matter the cost we would battle. Lives may be lost but we would not let you in. We would not allow you to roam our ship and hurt our people.

 

But instead of staying away you walked right in. Just like everyone seems to do. You moved through our hallways multiplying into eight. No longer were you a whole but many wholes. Are you of one mind or are you of eight separate minds now? Where are you from? Your curved features make me wonder if you are not far from the ancestors of the sea. Your eyes are as deep as a novel and seem to contain no less information than one.

 

Now you control our ship and we abhor you. Yet you allow us to live so we adore you.

 

One among our ranks fell yet you brought him back. Did you cause him to fall and now are simply showing your power over us by bringing him back or did you save him from something his body brought upon him?

 

Soon we will sit across a table where rounds will be exchanged. Yet once the smoke clears we both know that we both will continue to stand. What do you want? Why have you taken control of our ship? You claim to be offering us something, are you here to make good for your crimes? I abhor you.

 

Let me tell you know what we will tell you sitting across the table; we don’t want what you are trying to give us. We don’t want to be served and we don’t want to be waited on. Nothing you can offer is as good as our home. You can never be a trusted friend that we can rely on so you are no good. What can we say though? You control our lives right now and we are alive. I adore you.

 

Do you expect us to simply stick our hands in our pockets, bow our heads, and go on an adventure with you? Us pretending that this is real and what we like best? Do you think we’ll believe what you have to say?

 

You can do many things to keep us from being happy but you aren’t going to keep us from living. Our minds aren’t swayed easily when abducted so you better hurry before we have time to think. Soon we will find a way to separate ourselves from you. It’s only a matter of time. What can I say? I abhor you.

 

But thanks or no thanks to you we live. We’ll have that opportunity to sit across the table and not be swayed by your request. We’ll have the opportunity to fight you when the time comes. We only have those opportunities because we are still alive. For that I adore you.

 

We heard you coming and you came. We saw you coming and you came. We saw you there and you were there. Soon we will see you leave and you will be gone.