Voice In The Dark

[Atragon9 0]

::A9 sits on the floor of the room, his eyes closed, his hands over his ears, awake - for a very long time. His mind is racing::

 

{How long have I been in this room, it seems like a very long time. This room started off as pitch dark with floodlights on me, then I TK'ed them and they lit up the frakking walls... so bright! I close my eyes, but it is still so bright, I try to cover my closed eyes with my hands, but the noise they pipe in here is so loud, so discordant, so random. I know what they are doing it, but it is still completely effective. Just as I start to sleep, the sound begins, the lights on full blast. They only dim them both when they give me food and expect me to then use the bowls for bodily purposes. The times I refuse, they take away the food and turn on the light and sound show again. The same when I try and make meal time and personal time go on longer than they want, and the times I tried to use my TK, it led to longer times between meals and quiet.}}

 

{I... I don't know how long I have been here, but there have been about 6 meal times - has to be more than two days with all the delays I bring on myself - and I know I haven't gotten more than a few minutes rest or sleep. They don't ask me any questions, but I know that will change, once I'm "ready." If they wanted to kill me, they would have done so already. If they wanted simply a hostage, I would be left in te dark, but given regular food and personal breaks. No, they want me... pliant. What's worse is that I can try to be as logical and reasoned about this as I can, but I can feel my rational mind slipping, my resolve and my courage fading. I want to sleep, SO BADLY. I just want some quiet, some darkness, some comfort. I know if I fight them I will never see any of it. Frak, I don't even have anything to use my TK on, if I thought I could even control it any more. They are patient, persistent, good at their job. I have to hold on, I have to try and climb... I have to escape and ride... what am I thinking about? I don't get it... I just want to go home, I just want to go away, please make it all go away, me too }

 

::The lights dim to almost total darkness and the sound is turned off. The door is open, but no food bowls are brought in, just a person enters, wearing an EVA suit with all the external-facing lights on, to blind A9::

 

VoiceInTheDark> ::through the suit speakers:: Admiral, I see you are progressing well.

 

A9> ::squinting at the man in the suit, finally giving up and covering his eyes with his hands:: I don't understand?

 

VITD> Yes, exactly. So tell me, why are you on Titan, and don't go on and on about it being your home. We both know there's something else.

 

A9> ::getting emotional:: No, really, it's shore leave. I don't get to see home that often. I just wanted to go home, let me go home!

 

VITD> You are home, don't you recognize it? Look around.

 

A9>::Takes his hand away from his eyes and squints them open into the light:: No, I want to go home, Go Home!!

 

VITD> Admiral, I promise you can go home, as soon as you tell me why you're here.

 

A9> I am here because I want to go home.

 

VITD> ::angry tone to his voice:: I see you have more to do before you are ready to help, ready to leave. No rest for the wicked! ::He turns and walks away from A9 just as the light and sounds start up again::

 

A9> No, NOOOOOOO!!!!!!