Trust, Betrayal, Disappointment

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Trust

 

Reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of a person or thing; confident expectation. The obligation or responsibility imposed on a person in whom confidence or authority is placed, a person on whom one relies upon.

 

Idiom: Trust implies instinctive unquestioning belief in and reliance upon something.

 

I trusted this one. I should have learned my lesson from the previous two, but I’ve always had a weakness of giving people the benefit of the doubt first. Here I thought that I had a decent report going with this new first officer, as we had worked together for years, and half the time could even finish each other’s sentences. Yet, here it was, when I needed to ask of her, one tiny bit of help, the woman could not even do this for me.

 

Did she think I enjoyed having my brains scrambled like so many eggs in a blender? Blazes, I just wanted to get my ship home, and the only way that was going to happen, was to work with Holly. I know there was no way that she would voluntarily have gotten into the tiny yacht with the AI. If it were up to her, I’d wager that she’d decompile those chips as fast as she could if given the chance; she had so little trust in Holly. But in the end, this was the only way we were going to that saucer through with Excalibur’s tow, with Holly spot reinforcing structural integrity, and using internal pressure and gasses to do help do this. Well, at least she didn’t let them try to do a site to site transport while in the wormhole. I’d most likely not have made that trip.

 

 

Betrayal

 

The violation of an expressed or perceived trust by a person or persons with whom another relies upon for some aspect of his or her life.

 

I knew I was still getting over another concussion, I knew what my risks were, yet when all I wanted, was a steady hand to help me quietly to some quiet quarters to rest afterwards, she could not do that one little thing I asked. How hard to quietly escort me and help me get an uplink to Admiral Hardwick. I had orders to report our situation as soon as possible and SF Headquarters was awaiting my call. They knew my plan, I had briefed them on it before we had reached the wormhole, and they agreed with it (even though some of them would still also like to see Holly deleted, but after her sentience hearing, that was not going to happen).

 

No, not only could the woman not quietly get me to where I could rest, she makes a parade of it, enlisting the help of that strange woman that was Corizon’s executive officer. Blazes that woman talked loud, each syllable thundering in my skull. And then to make it worse, dragging me along the Promenade for all to see, getting worse when they decided I needed a hover chair and trailing medtech to go along with it!! Half the station must have seen me sitting there half in a daze. The only reason I didn’t round on her there and then, is that the Wydown woman said that Kwai was also ill. I know, I know, now I’m half ready to give her the benefit of the doubt yet again, but being sick has nothing to do with breaking my trust. There was a reason I put her in that post, I needed someone I could trust. Someone that would assist me when I needed it. I had orders I needed to follow, and my headache could have been seen to later.

 

Not only that, but I knew that one more incident of that recurring head injury on my record, had a good chance of getting me relieved of my current posting. Headquarters had been threatening to put me at a desk for years now due to that. I thought I had made that clear to her back on the Republic when she trapped me in sickbay a week ago, but evidently not. The medics had finally left me alone, telling me the same as I already knew. Rest. Sleep. No strenuous activities. But they did at least give me a mild painkiller to help me through the uncomfortable pain I felt behind my eyes.

 

And now, having talked to Admiral Hawkins, I now have new orders, and will have to inform my First Officer shortly. I know I’ll see her when we meet with Corizon and that Wydown woman later. I’ll have to pull her aside a moment, and update her then.

Disappointment

 

Dismay, dissatisfaction, frustration, letdown.

 

Yes, that about covers it.