Hope for the Hopeless

[DesdemonaLevy 0]

What is hope? Some would describe it as a wish or desire for something to happen others think about it as something we should not always believe in. Mona watched Shadow feeling that her explanations of hope were falling short. How do you describe something to a being that didn’t really have a concept of it? Mona turned her thoughts back to the away team for a moment and silently hoped that they would all be safe. She realized she was doing that more often nowadays, hoping for the crew. There was a time when she had no hope and yet now she had enough for an entire ship.

 

Mona sat on the hospital bed working on mental exercises with her grandmother. Mona broke the connection suddenly and stared at Min, “This is hopeless. I will never be able to clear my mind with everyone’s thoughts running thru in here” She said as she pointed to her head. The older women nodded and gently said “Nothing is hopeless. The only time things are truly hopeless is when we want them to be. I hope my darling you don’t want this to be hopeless.” Mona stood up and began to pace the room. She still had to work very hard to try and control the many thoughts flying around in her head and most times she couldn’t do it for very long. The two women didn’t talk for a few minutes. Min sat on the bed calm and collected while Mona paced the room becoming more agitated by the moment. Mona walked to the door and looked out in the hallway. On the outside it was a cold sterile place, not to mention quiet. She hated it here and wanted out. She promised herself that after this she would never spend anymore time in hospitals. Mona turned around and faced her grandmother again. “Your right Min, nothing is ever hopeless. You want to know what I hope for?” Mona didn’t even give her a chance to reply before she continued. “I hope that someday I get out of this stupid hospital. I hope my brother suffers for what he did to me. I hope those stupid doctors realize what kind of curse they have given me. And most of all I hope these voices in my head go away someday.” Mona cut herself off as she began to once again hear the doctors down the hall talk about her. Min only watched her granddaughter, she understood where her anger was coming from but knew if Mona continued to focus on it, it would eat her up from the inside out. And Min knew the telepathy was already doing that. Mona began to cry silently as she watched her grandmother. “I’m sorry. I guess I am just scared because you’re right. If my anger doesn’t kill me then my mind will.” Min looked a bit surprised; she thought she had hid her thoughts deep enough. Mona continued “I can still hear them. Anyway I have changed my mind. All I hope for right now is learning to control my mind so I can stay with you.” Min collected the young frightened girl in her arms and slowly began to rock her. “Everything will be alright my love, just think good thoughts.”

 

Mona shook her head slightly as she thought about the past. She wasn’t sure if Shadow completely understood hope, but she was sure he understood it enough to know it was a good thing. She knew the away team was up against a lot, but she had hope that they would be fine and do their job well.

Edited December 18, 2007 by DesdemonaLevy