"Lack of Judgment"

[Jamie Kroells 0]

“Lack of Judgment”

 

And I'd make it right if you wanted it

I want it back more than you know

I'd cross the line if you wanted it

I want you back

 

One Hundred and Twenty seconds wasn’t really a lot of time to do anything, especially when you realized you’ve done something that would more then likely get you killed. However, as Jamie watched the tense exchange in Main Engineering, he realized what was necessary. He hadn’t paid attention in the least bit, to the point where if someone asked him what was going on in there, he wouldn’t have the foggiest clue.

 

Rather then focus on the ship, and all the lives in there, the only thing he saw was Kairi slowly creeping to Prell’s office.

 

The only thing he felt was a quiet fury if something should happen to her.

 

And that was when he realized it. In the interest of ultimately saving her above everything, he had given the terrorists exactly what they needed to hold the ship by a the neck. Without being able to go into MVAM mode, if the Romulans destroyed the middle core, the entire ship would go. If he had let things be, Harper could have split the ship, potentially saving two thirds of the crew.

 

Not exactly a kind light to the engineers, and every unfortunate soul on those decks, but every Vulcan knew the saying “the needs of the many outweigh the needs of the few”.

 

He gave off a small scowl. It was rather sobering that even inadvertently, and with good intentions he had subconsciously sold out the ship for a single person, no matter how important. For some odd reason thoughts of his father popped into his head. Travis told him once of a woman who showed him what duty and loyalty really meant. Jamie had to doubt that Travis would be smiling proudly right now.

 

So he gently floated several inches of the ground, intently staring at the view screen, reeling in the knowledge of what his lack of judgment has done.

 

And I'm waiting for you

To get that feeling once again

Reunited in the end

And I've been waiting for you

To capture my imagination

‘Cause I've been fooled by the illusions in my head

In my head