"Worries"

[Christie Farron 0]

Lieutenant Commander Christina Farron

Chief Science Officer

USS Manticore

 

"Worries"

 

She could remember throwing herself upon the man who seemed to be her mortal enemy, and nothing more. Farron was told countless times after the incursion within the Manticore's engineering section and, in particular, Chief Garnoopy's office was an extravagent fight. Truthfully, Farron had no intentions of ever seeing Garnoopy on that visit to Engineering, and instead had only planned to destroy increminating evidence against her. Granted, she was not in the best of positions, but she still believed it could have been worse.

 

Farron remembered vividly from that day forward the words of Captain Sovak, and the reprimand placed on her record for the disruptive and irresponsible behavior. As hours ticked by, her mind continued to dwell on the images that haunted her, and focus on asking herself, "Why?" She had a duty to perform, she had a career, she had responsibility, she had her future... and now, she was truly beginning to question her own motives in life. Was her entire life an effort to seek revenge? It is true that Garnoopy and Farron disagreed on a great many items of interest, however each also had a responsibility to the ship as a whole. As much as Farron wanted to blame Garnoopy for the entire fiasco of events that had unfolded between them, she couldn't; in more than one way, she created the fiasco to begin with. It was Farron who insisted on fixing an Engineering system in her department simply due to impatience, and it was Farron who entered Engineering with her own agenda, causing infractions in the agenda of others throughout the ship.

 

It was becoming clear that her own personal problems were becoming a distraction for the entire ship as a whole. In her mind, the idea that she was becoming the despised crewmember of Manticore was forming, and she no longer had control over the thoughts. She thought about speaking to Roget about these events, but knew the counselor would side with Garnoopy in all respects. She had no one left to turn to. Her only source of well-being was in the company of Kyle, who always felt at ease, and rightfully so, because he knew medicine. Was she acting in such crude behavior because she was afraid others would question her scientific abilities? It is a possibility.

 

She knew that her actions aboard ship would not go unpunished, though she did not know how long it would be before action would be taken against her. The answer to this question depended solely on how important the science department would be to the upcoming mission, which was still unknown to her. It is true that she was worried, for her dreams of a future could be quickly sliding away due to her own inability to be subtle. It would be a trying time for Farron, and a difficult time to cope with.